THE THOUGHT THAT CHANGED EVERYTHING
“Remember some of those balls that you’re juggling…some are glass, and some are rubber!”
It’s easy to forget this when I don’t stop to think about it, intentionally. Sometimes I’m so focused on not dropping any of the balls, that I forget…that some will bounce back and some will break.
I think THIS is one of my greatest realisations through this Motherhood journey so far. But the beauty and yet the greatest challenge of it is, that like an extraordinarily proficient juggler, we need to keep reshuffling our balls, adding new ones, moving aside others. Constantly staying mindful of which ones we’re choosing to keep in the air.
Sometimes I’m so focused on not dropping any of the balls, that I forget…that some will bounce back and some will break.
Sometimes and over time, I’m sure some of the initially fragile glass balls evolve and can almost transform to be as resilient as rubber or shatterproof as crystal. And some of the rubber ones can get as brittle as glass and might need to yield to new ones.
Some are precious in the fragility of their almost transient nature (like certain stages in our children’s or parent’s lives), and others are treasured in their ability to remain selflessly stable and available (like some of those unconditional, always dependable-relationships).
As a mum, my children have helped make life’s choice and decisions so much easier – in how they have taught me to Prioritise, without too much deliberation. There’s a new found clarity in most things. Don’t get me wrong, they are not always plan A. But they’ve helped me understand my own Plan A….another topic of it’s own someday??
The most intriguing part is that these balls need not just be people, relationships or even roles we play, they can be as complex as rainbow refractions of a whole.
My mental health.
My physical strength or ability.
My need for emotional peace.
My children’s sense of security.
Their deep rooted self-confidence.
Their understanding of unconditional love.
Their lack of a sense of entitlement.
Their consideration to those around them.
Their attitude to learning.
A kind, silent strength – theirs & mine.
My relationship with my parents & in-laws.
My connection with my siblings.
The friends who stand by me through the tough times.
The family that actually lives and breathes behind the word itself.
My sleep between 12-4am.
My dreams & passions.
My need to constantly evolve and embrace change.
My obession with personal mastery.
The planet & it’s non-human inhabitants.
The need to fight or even simply show-up for the good fight – even if it has nothing to do with me.
To be a part of the change I want to see.
The idea of self-love & self-worth.
Those are some of my GLASS balls.
Making me wonder if there are already too many in the air…
What are yours?
Mamma-Miya reminds and encourages me to keep reassessing the number, size and types of balls in the air at any given moment in my life – by allowing me the sanctity of that mind-space.
Mamma-Miya reminds and encourages me to keep reassessing the number, size and types of balls in the air at any given moment in my life